I gotta say, for the most part I’ve been doing ok. The kids have been hanging tough, but this week has felt a bit like a downer week.
The normal has been I have a good day followed by a not so great day. I can generally count on this pattern so I don’t get too high or low.
With all the mental health issues in my house from my oldest daughter (you may remember) I wasn’t sure what to expect. We’ve been able to focus on her eating restoration and she’s actually put 6 lbs on since quarantine which is great! She was supposed to take a trip to Israel with her 8th grade class and go away to camp for a month and that’s all been canceled. In a way this helped us avoid having to say she couldn’t go because she wasn’t healthy enough.
So she’s hanging in there, but she’s been having flash backs and nightmares of her time at the stress center. She was approached at night multiple times by some boys who found their way to her room or spooked her somehow. I’m constantly having to remind her she’s safe and she won’t ever have to return there if she doesn’t try and harm herself. I don’t think she was ever touched by anyone there, but it angers me and I have to fight the feelings of guilt for sending her there even though I know I did the right thing.
So this week after a few bad days in a row I’m looking to find some inspiration. Something to pull myself out of this feeling if hopelessness.
Our tent arrived yesterday, I know the weather is shit but maybe we can backyard camp.
I hope you guys are hanging in there. There’s always someone who has it way worse so I’m trying to keep that in perspective.
Have a great weekend guys.
The normal has been I have a good day followed by a not so great day. I can generally count on this pattern so I don’t get too high or low.
With all the mental health issues in my house from my oldest daughter (you may remember) I wasn’t sure what to expect. We’ve been able to focus on her eating restoration and she’s actually put 6 lbs on since quarantine which is great! She was supposed to take a trip to Israel with her 8th grade class and go away to camp for a month and that’s all been canceled. In a way this helped us avoid having to say she couldn’t go because she wasn’t healthy enough.
So she’s hanging in there, but she’s been having flash backs and nightmares of her time at the stress center. She was approached at night multiple times by some boys who found their way to her room or spooked her somehow. I’m constantly having to remind her she’s safe and she won’t ever have to return there if she doesn’t try and harm herself. I don’t think she was ever touched by anyone there, but it angers me and I have to fight the feelings of guilt for sending her there even though I know I did the right thing.
So this week after a few bad days in a row I’m looking to find some inspiration. Something to pull myself out of this feeling if hopelessness.
Our tent arrived yesterday, I know the weather is shit but maybe we can backyard camp.
I hope you guys are hanging in there. There’s always someone who has it way worse so I’m trying to keep that in perspective.
Have a great weekend guys.